Every time I write something about you, I’ve always wondered what you’d think and feel if you knew.

Last night, I was on the verge of sending you my blog’s URL without telling you that it’s mine. Would you realize it was made solely for you?

Would you recognize the small talks we shared? There’s a chance, yes, but I bet, you won’t remember it the way I did. Every moments we shared together, just the two of us or with a couple of others, I have it memorized so I could replay it on my mind over and over again. That’s not enough, though. I have to write it here and tagged your name because I am hoping I can show it to you someday.

This blog.

Mirai Nikki episode 5 quotes

Can't I do anything by myself? 
--Amano Yukiteru, Mirai Nikki ep 5

The Seen World and the Unseen World. 
Sources of suffering always came from the Unseen World.
---Kasugano Tsubaki, Mirai Nikki ep 5

Mirai Nikki episode 1 Quotes

I'm always a bystander. Sure, other kids used to ask me to play in elementary school. But this is who I became after always turning them down. With all the spare time I had, I made a hobby of writing a diary. It was easy just being a bystander who recorded what he saw.
--Amano Yukiteru, Mirai Nikki ep 1

Even I have friends. They only exist in my imagination, though. 
--Amano Yukiteru, Mirai Nikki ep 1

The world needs a thrill every once in a while. --Deus ex Machina, Mirai Nikki ep 1

Hey say Jump- Star Time kanji + romaji Lyrics with translation

Hey Say Jump
Single 01:  Ultra Music Power, track 02
Released date: August 1, 2007

Star Time
Lyrics by:久保田洋司

Greedier- NEWS [maan cover]

Photo from a year ago

I truly miss my bangs back then..:p

Door to Red Cross

         It felt like I am about to start another experience as I enter the hall of Red Cross La Union Office that morning, September 1, 2013.  At the same time, I was feeling a bit anxious when I saw the faces of the other participants of the activity. It seems like all the other participants already are acquainted with other.. as they happily greet each other. There I was ,then, staring at the floor, not saying anything... feeling more and more restless as time went on. I was already there, but I kept on thinking, what if I didn't choose to accept Odie's invitation two days before... What are the things that I might be missing? And since that I was already there.. What are the new things that awaits me? Will the people I'll be meeting in that hall bring some changes to my life? I'll never know if I won't continue with this path that I had chose to take.. But I'm sure that my Red Cross Experience is gonna be worthwhile.

[photo credit to ate venus :DD]
sempai Mark Arlord Gaudia; Sir Joseph Acosta; Daddy Elvis Quitalig; Krysna Shean Quintos; sempai Shen Fonseca; Daniel Matthew Delfinado; Jolet Hipol; Shirlyn Grace Peralta; Khrystyne Melody Morales; Jherika Garcia; Ma'am Ana Marie Brioso; Miles Salesale; sempai Venus Rivera; sempai Kathryn Pulido; neechan Valerie-Anne Fariñas; atashi :DD

Another [Anime] Quotes

 No matter how many relationships we seem to have, in reality we are all alone.
---Mei Misaki, Another

Honestly, you're terrible. You're supposed to say you remember... even if it's not true.
----Izumi Azakawa, Another

Mirai Nikki episode 3 quotes

I wonder why the sky is blue.
I wonder why I am even here....
--Amano Yukiteru, Mirai Nikki ep 3

I never would have thought my action would have such a profound effect on our future.
--Amano Yukiteru, Mirai Nikki ep 3

本末転倒: Change of Residence, Start of New Life..

    I'm no longer staying at our house--- the house my mother and father had built when they decided to start a family. My mother and father get separated when I was still in my first grade in elementary. My mother died a year after. Then my father married another woman he had brought home. They had a son and two daughters. My younger sister and I are living with them in this house.

    For eight years, this house had been a venue to most of my life's turning points. It witnessed me growing up... from my elementary, high school and college years... when I had my review for my board exam until I passed and had my oath for my chosen profession. It houses all the good and bad memories in my life--- the beautiful and happy times, and also the sad and painful ones. I love this house that had comforted me for all these years. As much as I want to continue protecting this place, for now, I guess, I have to move out... 

     It is something that I had decided already. I can no longer stay in here, it's too painful to live with the family I once believed into... I really love and care for them but I also had emotional needs that I can never get from them. Acceptance, understanding, appreciation, protection, support, genuine affection... I longed for those... 

      Receiving a lot of harsh and hurtful remarks, getting yourself in many petty arguments, misunderstandings, fighting for my sides and opinions, shouting like hell... I am already used with that kind of everyday scenes. I can live that kind of life, but I'm getting so tired already. I want to end such life because it was something that I don't deserve... I know that.

     I'm being selfish, I'm only thinking of myself again. But I don't care.. 

     Among all the things that I have now, the one that I want to protect most is my own self.

     I wanted to protect myself who had been suffering for so long.. emotional trauma.. and lots.. 

     I wanted to love myself who had been loving and caring others for too long. 

     I wanted to continue living for myself.

     If I won't be able to protect myself now, I won't be able to protect all the people and things that I always love.

     From here I want to go to the places where I am accepted, where I can take care of myself, where I can help the people around me, where I can pursue my goals, where I can build my future, where I can genuinely laugh and cry, where I can create new memories of loving and hoping. 

     I want to find a venue of my new life. Like this, if one had end, there will always be another beginning.

     Sore dake.

Mirai Nikki episode 2 quote

Isn't it comical? 
I always kept my distance as a bystander.
Now that I think of it, I was just afraid of getting hurt.
I was actually lonely inside.
I wanted to play with my friends too.
I wanted to answer questions and impress my teachers.
There was a girl I liked, too.
But... I was just afraid.
Afraid of getting involved and getting hurt. 
Fine with being a bystander ... is a lie.